Badeth Lopez

Is It Over?

I hate the way I feel right now
No secured words to expect
From someone I thought
Misses me the way I do to him.

His presence is elusive to my mind
That seems to be hanging something
The question of his real existence
To my vivid dreams then and again.

I believed and still assuming
Of the magic once I had with him
But does formality and aloofness
Signal the end of it all now?

Poor heart to await for an intense
And passionate care from him
Now that his heart’s preoccupied with
A love showered not by me.

Please don’t overwhelm me
With your sweet voices and gestures
If in the end, I will cry again
For you’ll renounce seeing me only.

I Lied

My life exists as ordinary
As what other beings have
With laughters and merriment
Sadness and worries, too.

For years I withhold the past
Which once made me cried
And wipe out all the pains
It just created in my heart.

Ignoring what’s inside of me
Pretending I’ve moved on
Believing somehow what I felt
Had gone already.

I stopped the memories
We spent together
And rather spend each day
With happiness and laughters.

But you came back again
My heart stopped for a moment
As if I’m breathless
And tears started to flow.

Why only now?
When everything’s going great?
I’ve waited in silent
Hoping you’ll find me, too.

I belong to someone else now
And things are different
But I must admit
I still care and long for you.

Please leave and never return
Cause you only make this sadness
Kill me more and more
So, go where you used to be!

I have to move ahead
For the sake of my loved ones
I don’t want to prolong the pain
You once caused in my heart.

If we’re meant to each other
God will lead us to one another
Not now, but in His time
Free to love unselfishly.

Time Will Tell

The love we used to have
Is hard to forget
The pain of leaving
Is unbearable and dying.

The separation we had
Is just temporary
None of us knows
When we’ll meet again.

I believe this love
Will kindle again
Not now….
Perhaps, on another time.

I’ll wait…
Let this agonizing sadness
Just flies….
On the wings of time.

No true love
Can’t wait for the right time
So I’ll stay just here
And pray it will come soon.

When our hearts meet again
And freely show to them
Our true and lasting love.

My Husband

I couldn’t find a word
To express how much I love you
Cause in my heart and mind
I am overwhelmed by your love.

You’re not a perfect lover
Always has bad moods I hate
A snob man like you
An irksome to a woman like me.

You believe you stand out in everything
But for me you’re just big headed
Don’t wait for my opinions
Rather assumed to be very good.

I abhor some of your ideas
It irritates me a lot
Your words are better than mine
As if you are the best of all.

But what makes me stay long
In this up and down love affair
Is your honesty and loyalty
To your promises on our love.

I may not be the woman
With the most beautiful face
But you always assure me
I possess the beauty no one has.

Your kiss and hug everyday
Brings comfort to my loneliness
Never a dull moment
When you speak of love.

I am always pleased
With your endearing words
Coupled with genuine actions
Of how much you really love me.

May our love last forever
Even if it takes longer
How I wish it will never stop
Till our last breath.